Heart Compass Oracle volume 5 now available on Spotify // HCO :: vol 5
Heart Compass Oracle volume 5 now available on Spotify // HCO :: vol 5
Heart Compass Oracle volume 4 now available on Spotify // HCO :: vol 4
I’ve been working on my Heart Compass oracle deck idea since last winter.
The acceleration and transformation I’ve experienced so far since I started the Embodied Leadership and Facilitator Certification training has inspired something deep within me that I can’t ignore any longer. And by that I mean what am I offering to the world and how do I want to show up more authentically as myself?
Creativity and self-expression through my art has always been such an important part of my life. That being said, these cards want so badly to manifest into physical form! On my way home from The Happy Sessions retreat at Windhorse Farm, I received the message loud and clear that it was time to contact my tribe to get these designed and printed.
As a result it’s all been happening so fast. I had not one, but two amazing creative design meetings after my retreat at the end of April. I had another meeting today to go over the design concepts. Part one of the project is in progress as the graphic designer is in the process of creating the rest of the card designs before we finalize them and go to print.
So in the flow, everything about this process feels easy, aligned, and magically guided.
There is a special transmission of positive, aligned energy going into these cards, and I could not be more excited to be able to extend that energy to you all while you are using the deck...through your hands and into your heart.
Every step of the way, I trusted my instincts with my creative channel and the process (even when it felt stalled).
These cards are not only an extension of the Blog, but an extension of my Soul.
I can’t wait to share more information as the creativity and inspiration continues to flow from Spirit, through to myself and my team.
I can already feel these cards in my hands, and all I can say is that they ✨VIBRATE with LOVE✨.
If you’d like to stay-up-to-date on the progress of the cards, I encourage you to follow @heartcompassoracle on Instagram. As the designs get finalized, I will begin to curate the account! So exciting!
This PURPOSE message came through channeled writing, and I've been meaning to share it!
The notion of, and what may feel like new age societal pressure around finding our "purpose" can seem daunting, especially for someone new on the spiritual path.
Just remember that by simply "being" and supporting yourself by being your unique you is enough! It's whatever comes naturally and feels easy to you.
I’m back from my Embodied Leadership training with Anne Berube. It was a very powerful weekend for me, and the words that come to mind are:
:: importance of the breath
:: comfort with the unknown
:: letting go
:: finding Father
:: holding space
Being in the energy of alignment during my five days at Windhorse allowed for a deeper connection with my gifts, unlocking the more expansive parts of myself I always knew were there.
Fully integrated with the landscape, during a night walk-turned-shamanic-journey in the woods, I was granted full access to the ancient wisdom records of my ancestors that were awaiting retrieval in my one reality.
Insightful downloads and system upgrades when I least expected it, all while doing nothing, in the uninterrupted frequency of the weekend. Soulful Light code activations felt on the cellular level.
It was through the magic of the unplanned, and intimate story telling where I experienced the most openness, vulnerability and depth - fully supported with subtlety and gentleness held within the power of being seen.
I came back feeling more than ready to reclaim my place as a creative, a leader and as a intuitive healer, inspired to share my message through my Heart Compass Oracle deck.
I had a really transformative appointment with Anne on Friday, and gearing up for the Embodied Leadership and Facilitator training at the end of the month. It’s through our chats that I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ve always known I had a special connection to Universal Source Energy. I never questioned this guidance and Source when I was little. Since reclaiming that part of of myself in recent years, I’m ready to take my healing to yet another level, as I make the transition from student to Teacher.
I shared a story with her on Friday that I wrote as a child about the spirit of girl. In the story, I go on to describe this girl as a new friend at school, only to find out later, during a dream visitation, that she was in fact the ghost of the daughter of a Shaman. I wrote this story when I was in grade 4!
When I got home from my appointment, I was so excited about remembering this story I decided to venture down to my storage unit to see what other school-aged treasures I could find. I’m really grateful that mom saved a special box filled with school stuff, such as report cards, art work, and some Hilroy scribblers filled with stories and drawings from different subjects. A treasure trove of goodies!
In the box I discovered a scribbler from religion class, and it in a special poem. Keep in mind, while growing up in French Acadian Cape Breton, Catholicism class was mandatory. And, while I don’t consider myself religious at all now, I do believe it all comes from what will often be described as Universal Consciousness/Love/Source Energy.
I would describe this poem as a declaration of love. I wrote when I was 10. It’s evident that I never questioned my relationship with Source back then, and it was only natural for me to believe in it, and to declare that all you need to do to access it is to listen.
Wayne Dyer used to refer to the book Power Vs. Force by David R. Hawkins, a lot in his talks. In the book Hawkins describes Jesus as someone who made a difference through living his life from the highest level of consciousness and vibration possible. He was operating at such a high level that he was capable of raising the frequency of the planet by counterbalancing the negatively vibrating energies with this positivity. (If you are interested to having a quick read about it, this article Do You Make a Difference? by Wayne is a good introduction to the concept).
To be present is to successfully tap into your own heart (Watch! Listen!). We all had access to this deep knowing as children, we just forgot it somewhere along the way. Our access to it didn’t changed, but our perception of it did.
There is always time to reclaim this high vibration and to make a difference in one’s life and to those around you. All that is required of you is an awareness of your own vibration, and the conscious effort to listen in, and look around for evidence of this love. Love is all around us, is in us, and is us.
While cozy in one night this week, I had a craving for hot chocolate. Since I cut out refined sugars, and dairy, I decided to see what I could come up with based on what ingredients I had readily available.
This recipe is creamy, delicious, and might I say decadent! I added in a few substitutions depending on what you have at your disposal in your own kitchen.
Step 1: Make a chocolate paste, mixing together:
1/2 tsp. softened ghee butter (or coconut oil)
1/2 tsp. organic cocoa powder (or raw cacao powder)
1/4 tsp. Lakanto Monkfruit Sweetener (or maple syryp or honey)
Step 2: Heat 1 cup of Silk Coconut Cream for Coffee
Step 3: Stir in chocolate paste.
For added decadence, froth the mixture so it’s nice and creamy. Sprinkle with cinnamon, cardamom, or some of the Lakanto sweetener for a little sparkle.
Hope you enjoy!
💌PSA (Public Spirit Announcement)!💌
The message that just came through loud and clear from Spirit to share with all of you is:
💫💫HONOUR YOUR GRIEF💫
The holidays can be very difficult for many people, and grief can sneak up on you in a lot of different ways. It can come in the form of anger, fatigue, impatience, sadness...
I want to pass along the message that you are to HONOUR this grief, and allow it to pass through you. It's normal to grieve during the holidays, and it's ok to balance a mix of sorrow and joy, ⭐️feeling everything⭐️ simultaneously.
There is no one right way to feel your way through the holidays, except to be compassionate, patient, and kind to yourself no matter how you're feeling.
I miss my dad, and I miss my grandmother who died on Christmas Day seven years ago. Today I honour them, our memories, our family traditions, and send out LOVE. I trust they will receive the message, one way or another.
Sending love to all of you, and wishing you the highest the holidays has to offer. And, if that includes grief, use it to empower and guide you into a vibration of gratitude for what is here now.
I pride myself on maintaining a non-toxic home. This includes using eco-friendly cleaners free of harsh chemicals, and burning beeswax candles exclusively. With the arrival of holidays, I decided to create my own version of a Christmas scented candle with this Simmer Pot recipe.
In a pot, mix together the following ingredients, bring to a boil, then simmer. As the mixture evaporates, you can continue to add water and new orange peels, as the scents from this mixture will last up to 2 days. Leave the pot uncovered.
Smells Like Christmas
4 cups of water
1 cup of clementine or orange peels
2 Tbsp of ground cinnamon
1 tsp of vanilla
1 tsp of nutmeg
1 tsp of ground or whole clove
1/2 tsp of ginger or star anise
Enjoy! With love,
Heart Compass Oracle Vol. 3 now available on Spotify // HCO :: vol 3
Heart Compass Oracle Vol. 2 now available on Spotify // HCO :: vol 2. Kurt Vile favourites.
Heart Compass Oracle Vol. 1 now available on Spotify // HCO :: vol 1
Music is essential to my healing process, and connecting with it is as healing for me as other modalities. Much like when the perfect book appears, connecting to certain songs at different stages of my evolution supports a deeper conversation with myself. It's a creative outlet that stirs the movement of my body, and my emotions in order to access a higher vibration that is readily accessible.
Creating personal playlists is going to be a key piece in an upcoming project. While I'm not quite ready to share all of those details with you yet, I urge you to continue following along on my journey through my PLAYlists. I hope you enjoy!
Here is the first playlist launch.
I first heard about John of God when I read Spirit Junkie by Gabrielle Bernstein about 4 years ago. I remember it sounding a little strange and automatically assumed it was something reserved for the select few, including celebrity self-help writers such as Gabrielle, Wayne Dyer and Oprah. While I was very curious about it at the time, I put it on the back burner for later in my healing process. Part of me always knew I would have an opportunity to experience this when the timing was right for me. I did ask myself, though, would I have to travel to Brazil to visit this man?
Around the same time I read Spirit Junkie, my friend Kate told me about a reading she had with a channeler and kundalini yoga instructor named Jackie O'Shea while on a recent visit to NYC. After hearing about this, I decided to book a Skype reading with Jackie. Fast forward three years, to this past fall, when I received Jackie's newsletter informing her clients she was planning to visit John Of God at the Casa de Dom Iancio, a spiritual centre in Abadiania, in central Brazil. She was offering to take photos and healing requests down with her so that John of God could perform what they call a "remote healing intervention" or "invisible surgery." I took this as a sign, and because I trusted Jackie, I decided to go for it. Before I received Jackie's email I didn't realize the remote healing sessions were even an option.
Once I signed up I was instructed to send her a photo of myself, including a list of the top 4 or 5 things I wanted healed. The majority of the things on my list were emotional, leftover family shit that I've been committed to healing so diligently during the last number of years. The list also included specific things I knew were getting in the way of sharing a joyful life with a romantic partner.
I was ready to end the struggle with relationships, including the emotional baggage that comes along with growing up around addiction, such as co-dependency, and attracting unhealthy bonds. I've been so committed to myself and my healing process as of late, that it seemed meant to be that this opportunity presented itself when it did. There was no question I had to do it!
Jackie told me she would be going to Brazil and visiting the Casa in mid-November, and to await another email for further instruction. She would also informed me as to what day the healing would take place. In addition to the healing session, she would send the special herbs from Brazil. The herb is encapsulated passion flower. Everyone gets the same herb; however, your prescription is uniquely charged with healing properties specific to your needs. Subsequently, it took about a month after the healing session took place for the herbs to arrive in Halifax. In preparation for this day, I should also expect to start tuning into the Casa and the healing entities through dreams, and other intuitive insights.
The strict healing instructions outline that you can't drink alcohol or eat hot peppers/hot sauce while taking the herbs for 40 days. I decided I would stop drinking beginning on the day of the healing until I was finished the herbs, which meant I stopped drinking in mid-November and didn't drink again until the end of January. Some people thought I was nuts giving up alcohol over the Christmas holidays, but since I'm not a big drinker to begin with, it was pretty easy for me to do. Others took it very personally that I would give up alcohol at all, which I found really interesting.
Once I made the decision to participate in this divine healing intervention, I started searching for stories about other people's experiences. There are countless personal accounts online that suggest these interventions, whether they be in person in Brazil, or remote through a photo, heal many people from physical and emotional ailments that hinder them from living their truest and best life.
I found lots of testimonials, including the ones from Gabby Bernstein and Oprah. Oprah produced a special documentary about John of God and the Casa. She also did an exclusive interview on Super Soul Sunday with Wayne Dyer. In it, he describes to her in detail his personal experience with his remote healing intervention, and claimed it cured his leukemia.
Even before the healing took place, I started feeling connected to the Casa and to the healing entities through intuitive dreams, heightened intuition, and powerful meditations. And, if you follow my blog you already know that I recently had a dream about where to find my dad. It was during this time that I had this particular dream.
On the day the healing took place I was at work, and while Jackie suggested I should try my best to stay in bed for 24 hours following the healing session, I couldn't get that day off. Despite not being able to stay home, I managed to go to bed at 5pm that night. I slept for a full 12 hours and I did that two nights in a row.
On the morning of healing day, I felt really tired, and could not keep my eyes open during a 10am meeting. This is not like me, since I get on average of about 8-9 hours sleep a night. So I wondered if it was happening then. However, when 3pm rolled around I knew that was when it was all happening. I felt my liver flutter, and this went on for a few hours, and I was extremely tired. When I got home from work, I was ravenous and couldn't get enough food into me. I'm not exaggerating when I say my stomach was a bottomless pit and I was also incredibly thirsty. After I went to bed at 5pm, I woke myself up chanting OM a few hours later.
Overall, I would describe my healing experience as PURE AWARENESS.
My third eye blew wide open, and things became really clear. Since this experience, I feel like I can actually SEE through FEELING people's intentions, especially if they are trying to be manipulative, passive aggressive or are coming at it with the dark veil of narcissism. And, I don't mean see, like assume, I mean really see on a psychic level. I always knew I was intuitive but since this healing, those types of behaviours are far more apparent then ever - something I can feel before someone even opens their mouth. It's almost as if I see their intentions through feeling what they are feeling, and in turn my truth becomes that much more solidified in the moment.
My intuition is that much more heightened through this experience. I can confidentially say I've surpassed a level of discernment I never thought was possible for a human being. It is very hard to articulate and to put into words in a way that is accessible for someone who hasn't experienced it.
This level of discernment is much more psychic and intuitive, and can be described more accurately as clarisentient, a deeper knowing/feeling, on both an emotional and physical level. I can more easily navigate different types of interactions through neutrality, and non-reactivity. I also accept the invitation for a deeper connection to my truth. I am also very hyper-aware of energies before I even enter a room.
My ability to channel write source is also magnified. This gift has turned into a reliable tool for self-healing. I'm currently trying to figure out how I can use this gift to help others in a similar way, beyond just sharing through my newly inspired Instagram posts. I'm not forcing it, I'm just letting it all unfold. I'm finally ready to embrace my divinity and natural healing gifts through channeling and oracle work.
Through this process I have been shown how I closed myself off to receiving love my entire life, and experienced a paradigm shift in how I operate in my daily life.
Since this experience I have never felt so embodied nor have I ever felt such a profound sense of divine love for myself, and for other people.
I have been shown how I betrayed myself in a lot of ways, including tricking myself into thinking I wasn't worthy of the level of love I knew existed, and have spent so much time chasing, as opposed to embodying it in myself first. So, naturally, the relationships that have always supported my highest purpose are far more concrete, while the ones that don't support it are disappearing in very natural and graceful ways.
Naturally, I'm weeding out relationships that no longer serve my highest purpose, and replacing them with more loving, supportive relationships. And, I am manifesting things a lot sooner. For example, within a month of finishing the 40days of herbs, a new romantic connection appeared.
Lastly, I have come to realize who I can comfortably share these types of experiences with. I've been met with a lot of skepticism, and doubt, around the John of God healing. Since the most important thing to me now is my healing process, I choose to share this stuff with the friends that mirror the support that I have for myself. As cliché as "find your tribe" can be, it is so true! For those of you who were intrigued and curious enough to get down to this paragraph, thank you for your support. As for the rest of you whom may have dropped off as soon as I mentioned "John of God" or "remote healing" I also thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have the opportunity to more clearly define my audience for my posts, and future offerings.
I'm a lot more comfortable with myself and embracing this stuff as part of who I am. As I define myself, I define my audience. I'm inspired to be more like myself, in that I am able to serve in more powerful and meaningful way.
If you're curious to learn more, here are some links:
Gabor Maté 's book In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts changed the way I viewed addiction in my family, and helped me to recognize and appreciate my emotions and sensitivities in a way that serves my highest good.
The book landed in my lap through my sister, whom at the time was working with Addictions Services. I would pick it up, read a little bit, then quickly put it back down for long stretches at a time. It took me a year and a half finish it, because it wasn't until I was ready to face my own truths, could I take it in in a meaningful way.
All things considered, the courage to transmute our traumas and suffering into peace lends itself to self-healing and a freedom in our hearts.
I love following his work, and I highly recommend his interview with Tim Ferriss on February 20 (on The Tim Ferriss Show podcast). It is for anyone interested in gaining a better understanding of themselves, and the science behind addiction. His explanation of this science facilitates breeding more compassion for addiction, and ultimately for ourselves.
Messages like this one came in loud and clear by simply BEING in the woods for a weekend at Windhorse Farm. Disconnecting completely in a off-grid cabin in order to connect was the perfect setting for receiving what I like to call downloads from my pre-loaded inner wisdom database.
My 37th birthday is on Thursday, and this past month has been a very inward focused, reflective and integrative time. A Windhorse weekend was just what I needed for an overall review and a reset.
I was laying down on a little bridge overarching a brook, tucked into the ancient forest when I received this powerful message. When I zoned out it felt like I became part of the landscape, and I imagined the water carrying away any thoughts hindering my ability to think more clearly.
There is something to be said for drowning out the mind clutter so that our innate wisdom can flow through in order to just BE. We all have access to this ancient wisdom. It's a matter of deciding what environment best supports you (for me it's being in the woods or near the ocean), as well as how you wish to empower yourself with the information you receive.
If I'm feeling this, then as a collective, we could all benefit from giving ourselves the permission to drown out the noise on a regular, more intentional basis so we can connect more deeply with the truth in our hearts. In addition to that, how we express that truth to the fullest extent in a given moment.
I know this message means to continue to stoke my own inner fire (i.e my power, and what lights me up), not default to rescue mode, and to choose wisely when it comes to spending time those who fan my flames rather than dampen them.
My experience at Windhorse quickly became a metaphor for how I'd like to nurture myself on a different level altogether - stoking the wood stove fire and all!
What might this all mean to you? If you happen to sit with it for even a brief moment, usually the first thought that comes to mind is a good place to start.
Last night I had a moment of clarity after my meditation, and began writing - thinking about all the growth and personal work I accomplished in 2017.
The main take away I will carry through into this New Year is that life reflects back that which you are. If you are desiring something specific to show up, the more you embody that desire, the greater the chances are that it will start appearing in your life. If you lean back and let the magic happen, these desires can manifest in ways you least expect, which is part of the fun.
Here is some post-meditation wisdom to share with you.
A year ago today I posted my first blog post about dad. Since last November I've spoken to my dad a total of three times. The second time I had the courage to go see him in person.
After seeing him once last year, we went close to another year without speaking, but this time something was different. I was different. I was ok.
I accept the ways in which our relationship has evolved. This acceptance is deeply rooted in a trust and a knowing that can't be shaken or altered regardless of what's happening around me. I'm completely unattached from outcome and free from any expectations of him that he "should be a certain way because that's what fathers are supposed to do." Meeting him where he is, even if it's distant and emotional detached. I'm still ok.
I used to think if he wasn't paying attention to me and being the father he "used to be" or "supposed to be" that meant I was in some way unlovable. As I reflect back on the year, the most important thing I can do is
I wouldn't change the fact that we went three years without speaking. I give it the space I feel it needs moment to moment, and trust everything is happening the way it's supposed to.
Up until a week ago, I didn't actually know where he was. I found out he moved away, and I wasn't sure where. Eventually through an intuitive dream, which prompted an inspired internet search the next morning, I found him.
Rather than holding on to resentment or hurt that I didn't know where he was, I picked up the phone and called him. The only agenda I had was to say hi, and to let him know I was thinking about him. It was just so nice to hear his voice.
It feels pretty freeing to be in a place of pure awareness around the fact that his actions are not a reflection of my worth and "lovability" but rather an opportunity to love to him even more than I knew was possible, free of conditions. Despite what most people would assume given the circumstances, I feel so much love I could literally burst.
I will continue to search for him if he disappears again. I will continue to call. I will continue to tell him I miss him and that I love him. I will continue to send him all the love I have when I think about him. Nothing will ever change that.
When I was younger I kept a diary, and it wasn't until my late 20s did I revisit a regular writing practice. Since then I write in my journal almost daily. Writing is such an important part of my process. The written word helps me process what is going on with me internally, and helps me to recognize thoughts and belief patterns that best support me in that process.
My journal is a sort of best friend. It's a safe, and reliable place where I can share my vulnerability, the mundane day-to-day, my criticisms, my anger and resentments, the petty judgements and whatever else I need to get off my chest. I always said to my sister "if something happens to me tomorrow, the first thing you do is grab that box of journals and burn the damn thing!" Not kidding. :)
It's only within recent months that I changed the pattern around how I approach journaling. While it's healthy to get things off my chest, I realize that journaling also has the potential to keep me stuck in my old ways, dwell on old wounds, and reinforce limiting belief systems that don't serve me in the present.
Now that I'm kinder to myself, and more compassionate towards others, the words in my journal reflect that peaceful, softer state of being. And, not to say that I'm not going to continue to use my journal as a safe space to vent. I am just more conscious of how I process my journey through the power in the written word, in the same way I would in my thoughts and with my speech.
I notice and ask myself: Am I gossiping and dwelling on the past? Am I kind to myself with what it is I'm still processing, or am I being hard on myself for how I've handled a situation?
In the same way that focusing on negative thought patterns reinforces the negative, the same is true for writing. Writing about positive things in my journal reinforces those very same things. This approach is a practice in self-love because it just feels better to me.
So, as I incorporate this new practice into my daily life, I make a habit of beginning my journal entries with LIFE LOVES ME... and then I list all of the reasons. Some of the reasons may not even be part of my present awareness yet. These reasons could be things that I want to have show up and experience.
I ask myself what it is I truly want and how I feel having already experienced it, or as if I already have it. By focusing on the positive through the use of positive words, desires can truly manifest into the physical form in a very short amount of time.
This practice reinforces my positive belief system that supports me on a daily basis. As I begin to feel better, life starts to reflect that back to me, and I learn to trust the process. So, in a sense, not only am I using writing as a self-care practice, I'm also using it as a powerful manifestation tool.
If you want to chat more about this, or you have any questions I'm happy to connect. Just send me a note from my Contact page.