In riding a horse, we borrow freedom. - Helen Thompson
I am sooo excited! It's been a childhood dream of mine to learn horseback riding - and perhaps even one day, own my own horse. I just got confirmation yesterday that I got accepted into the Bengal Lancers Adult Beginner Riding Course that starts in April. Woohoo! I can picture it now looking out my oceanfront cottage window, the horse barn off in the distance *sigh*.
I used to put this kind of thing off because I didn't prioritize myself - I would talk myself out of stuff like this - telling myself it was too expensive, or frivolous, even if I could afford it.
I am aware that this type negative self-talk, is what some spiritual teachers call an "abundance block." It is deeply rooted in a lack of self-worth. These blocks keep us stuck and keep us playing small. I understand now that this comes from the negative messaging I received when I was younger. These messages became ingrained and soon became part of my belief system and my identity.
Although there was financial abundance growing up, that came at it's own price, creating a lot of confusion around finances and lack. For example, close relatives would make shaming comments about what we had, or wished to have, and dad would say things like "I'll have to work until I'm 90 for you all." This created a negative belief pattern that spending money had to result in guilt and heavy burdening. Receiving purely on the basis of being me just wasn't enough.
Now it's my job to teach myself differently and it's time to take responsibility for changing this pattern. I am working on unlearning all this BS messaging and changing these negative belief patterns around lack. Moving towards a more abundance mindset means always reaching for a better-feeling thought in the moment. I am unapologetically navigating through life without feeling the shame or guilt around spending on myself, and that feels so freeing.
If you're not prioritizing yourself, then who is?
I speak from experience when I say that I am having so much more fun as a result! Now, I'm not suggesting you go into debt to go out and have a good time; however, I do invite you to start noticing how you talk to yourself about money. For example: Do you always have to justify a purchase to yourself or to others? Do you downplay compliments? You're not in debt, but you spend everything you make? Are you living a lifestyle to impress other people? Do you find yourself judging people that have more financial freedom than you do?
It's knowing my worth, and believing I can do anything. And so far, the money has always shown up because I trust and believe that it will. The magical part about all of this is that my generosity of spirit has expanded as a result. Abundance and giving creates more abundance and receiving. It's not about being "deserving" because of some selfless act either! Abundance is a birthright, therein lies our freedom.
If you could do anything, what would it be?! What is stopping you from taking inspired action towards that goal?
Lots of love,